Hello all! I have been tossing around an idea for a jewelry component for...well, I guess many months now. I finally decided to expand that idea even further. I ordered everything I think I will need to complete it, and now here I sit wondering.....am I nuts? Just because I got a few nice compliments on some that I have made and utilized in my designs doesn't mean that if will fly! Oh mental doubt, why do you plague me so?
I am sure that there are other designers and artists that have felt the same feelings and trepidation that seem to be plaguing me right now. So, I sit here and try to dissect what I am feeling. Is it fear of failure? No, I don't think that scares me....that is how I learn the best, by making mistakes. I think, in all honest truth, I am scared of being laughed at. There. I said it. But why? I think that because I am a full-time mom, wife, and nurse and because I have not made this my daily career I feel like I don't "belong". Belong where though? I think maybe I hold some of my favorite designers in such HIGH regard, put them up on a pedestal, that they are out of reach, and "that I shall never be one of them"...........
Weird thoughts for a Tuesday huh?
So, as I sit and ponder all of these wacky thoughts and feeling, I have decided that I shall go on and attempt to make something that in truth.....just makes me happy. And if it fails....oh well! If I list it in my shop and no one likes it....again....oh well! More for me! :)
Thanks for listening to this roller coaster of a post! If you have any insight or have had the same experiences PLEASE feel free to tell me I am NOT alone!! Have a great day! Enjoy!